have faith in Allah

Assalamualaikum..

Allah tests us in many ways.

Sometimes, people let us down so we can be reminded by Allah that we should rely on no one but Him.

...

lost yet confuse

lost and confuse...

i was..

and still am..

it was like i'm stuck in the middle of the crowds

which i'm the one who freeze

while everyone moves as fast as the light

and i'm still there

lost and confuse

stand still

being me

how

can i get over it?

what

should i do about it?

told ya

i'm confuse

that makes me lost

come help!

{aziey_nasrudin_2016}

i am a servant

Assalamualaikum.

Well, to be short, i am now is in the stage of accepting things that Allah had planned for me no matter how hard it is. It was a lesson for me in living my life.. the gift that i told in the previous post, was taken back by Him, The Almighty. I believe in Allah. I believe that everything that had happened in my life was the best plan from Him. I've been tested in many ways. But somehow, i know that something good will come from it.

"I ask Allah's forgiveness"

only Allah knows

Assalamualaikum...

It's still my exam week.oh, first of all, Happy new year lovelies! Welcome to 2015. May this year will better for all of us. Insya Allah. 2014 pergi meninggalkan beribu kenangan buat saya. harusnya yang baik dijadikan tauladan, yang buruk dijadikan sempadan. 2014 taught me many things. Dan apa yang telah saya lalui dalam 2014 telah menjadikan diri saya sekarang. Yes memory remains. Sampai satu masa nanti, ia pasti hilang. I promise myself to move forward. And will never ever looking back. Semuanya dah ditentukan oleh Allah. Dan saya harus terima dengan tenang dan redha. Alhamdulillah my life's getting better now and of course i'am happy.

Di mana saya sekarang, apa yang saya lakukan sekarang, semuanya Allah's plan. I just do the best i can. I thank Allah for giving me this happiness. But still, am aware of it. Only Allah knows whether it will remains and never can end or vice versa. Mungkin juga ini masih ujian buat saya. Jadi saya akan bersedia apa pun yang mungkin terjadi atau mungkin kebahagian yang saya ada sekarang akan hilang satu hari nanti. Insya Allah saya redha. Yes am still scared and worry. After all that i had been through...... insya Allah aziey kuat!! (I am not as strong as i thought i was...)

**@_@**  traumatize!

P/s: bersangka baiklah dengan Allah. Jom istikharah!

Thank you for reading! 

kl kita

Assalamualaikum.

Waktu mencemburui aku

Kota raya menjamahku

Di mana perginya mimpiku

Mungkin di jemari Mu

Kau menghidupkan semangatku

Kau memberikan harapan

Dan Engkau rampas semula

Ku mencari jawapan

Di setiap persimpangan

Impian yang ku simpan

Hanya pada Mu

as my heart shattered

Assalamualaikum.

Tomorrow is my sister's big day. She's my one and only sister and am happy for her. Allah Maha Kuasa lagi Maha Besar. Saat ini saya sedang di duga oleh Nya. Tapi saya harus kuat dan tak terus berada dalam kesedihan. I have to show my happiness in my sister's wedding. Tapi, jujur saya cakap , untuk laksanakan dua kerja dalam satu masa, in this situation, is not easy. Mungkin ada yang tak faham apa yang saya maksudkan dekat sini. If you read my previous post, saya ada

Beritahu yang saya perlu siapkan assignments and at the moment, i also need to play my role for the wedding. But both bukan masalahnya. The problem is, dugaan yang sedang melanda saya sekarang ni lah yang buat saya sukar nak laksanakan dua dua kerja tu. Allah tak akan menduga kita melainkan kita mampu hadapinya. Mungkin ada hikmah apa yang berlaku ni. I am just not figure out the reason why yet. 

Hari ni Khamis, 27 November. Sebulan lagi saya nak lalui final exam pulak. Ya Allah permudahkanlah. Kuat kan lah hambaMu ini Ya Allah. Tapi sebulan dari sekarang, banyak perkara yang perlu diselesaikan. Saya tak pasti mampukah saya nak buat semuanya? semuanya berubah dalam sekelip mata. Semuanya hilang dalam sekelip mata. Saya perlu kuat untuk bangun balik. Tapi bolehkah saya? Berat. :'( Allah had planned. And His plans are the best. Saya tau anything can happen mengikut kehendakNya. Mungkin Dia sedang menghukum saya. Mungkin Dia sedang menyelamatkan saya. Hanya Dia tahu apa yang terbaik buat saya. 

Mungkin saat saya ada 'semua' dulu, saya lupa pada Dia. Jadi Dia turunkan dugaan ini pada saya supaya saya ingat Dia. Ya Allah ampunkan hambaMu ini. Saya redha dengan takdir ni. Hari ni rumah mula penuh dengan jiran jiran, saudara mara, untuk memeriahkan lagi majlis kak long. Saya cuba untuk lupa tentang benda benda sedih tu sambil sambil layan tetamu dan buat apa yang patut. But deep inside my heart, no one knows i cried. I cried so hard just to feel relief for what had happened recently. Perkara ni betul betul buat saya hilang arah. Masa depan saya impian saya semuanya hilang macam tu je. Macam mimpi. Betul betul macam mimpi. Tapi ni bukan mimpi. Ini realiti. Realiti hidup saya yang tak pernah saya bayangkan akan terjadi. Redha ~

P/s: i really hope for a second chance. There always a second chance.

Thank you for reading.

hurting by you

Hey. It was rude. Your reply was rude. I was waiting for hours for your reply. And you just give me that unexpected message? I would have waited for you till the dawn. But never expect to receive anything like that. You now what, i would never do that if i were you. I wouldn't. I mean it. i couldn't stand your excuse anymore. Just save your excuse to yourself.

Good bye.

take a break

Assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah.. today went well! But anyhow, having the butterflies symptom really interrupt my day! Huhu. Right now i am in the mood of doing nothing. Hehe next week saya 'ponteng' seminggu. Yeay! But still kena settle kan sume assignments and tasks dulu before taking a break. Phew! Saya belum list kan lagi task task yang menunggu dateline. Sure terbeliak mata nanti kalau dah list kan sume sekali. Berlambak i tell you. Harap harap dapat disiplin kan diri untuk siapkan semua tu before going back to reality next two week. 

Saya ingat nak cabut gitu je tapi fikir fikir balik kang daripada prof bising tanya satu kelas tentang kehilangan saya, baik la saya bagitau dia dulu. So selasa hari tu after kelas family counseling, saya terus jumpa prof nak bagitau ketiadaan saya minggu depan. Nasib baik prof seorang kaunselor, jadi dia tak tanya lebih lebih la. Just bagitau ada family matter je dia faham and okay. Alhamdulillah. 

Jadi saya mesti dan wajib siapkan semua assignment, study for presentation, and so on sebelum tiba nya hari kompang di palu. Kalau tak nanti habis la. Itu tak siap, ini tak siap....serabut pulak kepala nanti bila back to reality. Disember punye schedule memang dari sekarang dah full and packed! Mudah mudahan la semuanya berjalan lancar seperti yang dirancangkan. Untuk elak daripada keserabutan bulan Disember tu yang semua tasks yang bertulis mesti kene setel kan dulu. Sebab yang bakal menanti pulak lepas tu, program la, interview la, video taping la. Semoga Allah bantu . 

P/s: dan apa yang bermain dalam fikiran saya sekarang ni, saya tak pasti sama ada masih adakah lagi 20 Disember untuk tahun ni?

Thank you for reading. Toodles~

late night post

Assalamualaikum.

Ada seorang sahabat saya, everytime saya share problem kat dia, terus die judge...dia kelaskan saya ni macam mana macam mana semua. Hurm... sekarang saya jadi tak selesa nak luahkan perasaan and what not, because she makes me feel like i have no right to feel this and that. Since she seems did not understand about what i expressed to her based on what i had gone through, i decided not to talk too much with her. It was like, there's suddenly got a boundary between us, although we seems close too each other because i am aware of her attitude which is not accepting my flaws.

I thought good friend should be a person we can count on. She's nice but sometimes she's too overreact in giving responses. I'm not mad of her anyway. I'm just hurting. She hurts my feeling. And it become worst than before i talked to her about my problems. I was thinking maybe it is better not to overshare the problem i faced to her to avoid the worst situation to be happen (my feeling). 

I'm actually the type of person, who need somebody (to whom i prefer) to talk to whenever i experienced best or worst days of my life. And each topic (of the feeling) there will be different person to be talked to who are for sure my good listeners. i know, maybe you think its complicated, or i made things to be complicated, but there is the only way for me to feel relief from any burden situations.

Sesungguhnya saya tidaklah sekuat yang orang sangka. Saya juga ada hati dan perasaan, sebab memang itu lumrah manusia. Mungkin diluaran, saya anggap macam saya kuat but i'm not as strong as i thought i was. Jadi terima kasih kepada insan insan yang dah banyak berbakti dan menjadi pendengar yang setia selama beberapa tahun kite kenal. Saya sayang awak sume! Muah ciked!

It's getting late..

Thank you for reading! Toodles ~

days well spent

Assalamualaikum.

Howdy! Hai lovelies. I'm back to reality now. Been 3 days and 2 nights flirting and hanging around with my bestest buddy zwen-chan. We were filling up our limited times doing things we wanna do. Picniking in the house, play midnight scrabble while tv was on, eating burgers, snacks, and then i fell a sleep in front of the tv! Hahaha.

The next day we went to the campus for a photoshoot. It was awesome! With all the props, the picnic mat, the trees, the rocks, the grasses, the clouds, the rose, the 'i love you' balloon, hotdogs, and scrabble. Perfect! We were having a good time together and i was happy like.....Yeah! Haha

Its been one year and a half that we were lost and confused, we had been missing and busy with our lives that we forgot to find each other. But Alhamdulillah things have gone back together now and she's still the same as i knew her back then and am glad for that. She also had a chance to have a little conversation with the crush you know who. 

Thank you for reading!

in my shoes

Assalamualaikum.

I had gone through a terrible day today... Only Allah knows what i feel. Actually saya tak pernah bercadang nak post dalam blog anything yang tak berapa nak happy , yang sedih sedih, yang tak best tak best, tapi today i think i have too. Saya perlu blog ni untuk jadi teman bicara saat mereka tak lagi sudi mendengar. Saya tahu Allah always listen. Dan dia selalu ada untuk hamba hamba Nya. 

Tak mudah sebenarnya nak jadi saya. Tapi tak ada siapa pun faham sebab diorang bukan saya. Yang diorang tahu cuma cakap..jadi cakaplah apa pun. Namun inilah diri saya. Kenapa saya perlu puaskan hati orang untuk menjadi diri saya sendiri? Simple je la. Cuba letak kaki korang dalam kasut saya. Sakit? Ketat? Dan mungkin hanya dengan cara tu korang bole tengok dunia dari mata saya. Saat tu, cuba rasa kan apa yang saya rasa. Faham kan apa yang saya tempuh. Dan fikir kenapa saya jadi saya. 

Tak boleh? Susah? Tak perlu terlalu cepat menghakimi orang lain. Tak perlu nak memaksa. Saya tahu kemampuan saya sebab saya tahu diri saya. I just need some time. To take a break. To breathe in. I can't just do something that i think and i know i couldn't. Give me some time to try and let me be ready. And if the time has come, and i am ready, let me be me. 

Sedih gila ah. Jujur. Aku down. Dah la, nak tido.

Thank you for reading. 

my november

Assalamualaikum..

Howdy! My life today agak hectic sikit. Eh bukan sikit. Actually too hectic jugak la..saya dah try nak spend time untuk tulis blog, tapi ada je benda - benda yang menghalang. Huhu apa kan daya. Kerna ku hanya manusia biasa.. ^_^

Lately saya tak berapa nak energetic sangat sebab penat . Penat dengan kelas, assignments, study, presentation, dengan my little business lagi...pheww.. memang penat. tapi inilah hidup saya sekarang. Ini yang saya pilih. So kena la jugak tempuh dengan sabar. Mula - mula dulu mase belaja first degree lagi, memang dah berniat dah nak sambung belajar. Berazam sungguh -sungguh nak buat master. Sekarang bila dah sambung , baru saya tahu kepayahannya. Ya Allah, kuatlah hambaMu ini. 

Jangan salah faham. Bukan menyesal tapi saya sebagai manusia biasa kadang - kadang mengeluh jugak sebab penat. itu je. Cuma penat. Setiap orang ada jalan hidup yang berbeza. Terpulang pada kita macam mana nak harunginya. Kalau masih ada lagi readers kat blog ni, doakan la saya berjaya ye! Sebenarnya mata dah sangat mengantuk sebab tido pukul 3.30 pagi tadi setelkan assignment. Tapi belum bole nak tido lagi sebab tu la jenguk blog tersayang kejap..

Orite. Toodles!

Thank you for reading.

time flies .

Assalamualaikum readers.

How you guys doin'? Good? Aziey Nasrudin dah bangkit dari sedar akhirnya nak update blog ni. Banyak benda la nak story tapi, life's getting busy. Chewah. Alasan! Hahaha

Oklah.till next time.

can't give up now

permulaan yang awal, Bismillah...

assalamualaikum and good morning..

urm. hi. it's been a while. a lot of things happened to my life here..but still, i don't know what to write. when i woke up this morning i feel like i want to write about something. but still, i don't know where to start. its just that, I WANNA GO HOME!

things supposed to be flowing smoothly  as planned but unfortunately it's not. Allah knows best. He's the best planner after all. right now, i just need to be patient until the time comes. because right now may not be my time. well, Rome wasn't built in a day. it took several days for the job to be completed. in my case, i know my plan wont come to pass with no sight. just because other people seem to be succeeding now, doesn't mean i won't. just not right now. it could be next week, month or even year. 

i haven't come this far to give up now. 

"c'mon aziey c'mon!"

without these small tests, whatever they may be,

life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

it would be safe and comfortable

but dull and utterly pointless.

the thing is, i can't give up now.

SABAR.....

bye for now.

and thank you for reading.

1 month to go...tik tok tik tok..

assalamualaikum..

*congratulations! its your final year!*

sigh~

dulu, selalu fikir 5 tahun tu sangat lama.. selalu rase tak sabar je nak abes kan belaja kat sini.. tak sabar nak ade kerjaya.. nak ade duit nak pegi holiday oversea macam - macam impian laa senang cite.. tapi sekarang, bile masa yang selame ni ditunggu - tunggu dah hampir tiba, rase macam nak pusing balik masa tu...

but, i know it's impossible.. what ever it is, life must go on. 

tinggal sebulan je lagi...

sebulan je lagi nak tinggal kat sini..

sebulan je lagi nak enjoy hidup kat sini..

tapi, bile hari - hari dah sibuk dgn thesis, studies, and stuffs,

pasti sebulan tu akan berlalu macam sehari je tanpa disedari.....

ok bai.

happy enough?

i need a shoulder to cry on...........

note: baru lepas jatuh for the hundreds of times.. do anybody care?

time is gold

assalamualaikum.

mase zaman sekolah dulu, selalu merungut hal tak cukup masa. setiap kali cuti sekolah nak abes, baru la terhegeh - hegeh nak buat kerja sekolah, barulah sibuk nak cari buku - buku , satu jam lagi nak gerak balik asrama sibuk cari baju tak jumpe lah... haihh... macam - macam masalah timbul bile buat perangai menhabiskan masa dengan main dan tengok tv je. terlalu suke agaknye buat kerja last minute. (sekarang pun ape kurangnye..same je). :)

dah mencecah umur dewasa ni, kadang - kadang ade la jugak perangai lame datang balik cume beza nye sekarang dah bole berfikir ape yang patut didahulukan dan ape yang tak. dulu, merungut je nak buat semue bende tak sempat. tak siap homework sebab tak sempat. nak makan tak sempat. nak jenguk atok  pn tak sempat. sebenarnye tu semua jadi sebab kite yang pilih. semua manusia di dunia ni dibekalkan 24 jam sehari. tak ada yang terkecuali. so, semuanye bergantung kepada setiap individu untuk menguruskan hari - hari mereka dengan teratur dalam masa 24 jam setiap hari. 

membuang masa ibarat kite membuang emas ke dalam longkang yang busuk. power tak ayat ni? hee.. gune kenderaan canggih macam mana pun, kite tak bole nak kembali ke masa lampau. sebab tu la orang kate, 'time is gold'. nothing is worst than wasted time. it's the one thing you can't get back. so, darlingss, carpe diem, live your life to the fullest because life's too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. 

oh by the way, life's too short to waste time hating anyone. 

spread the love~

thank you for reading . 

salam ramadhan

assalamualaikum....

howdy? hehe.. ape kaba semua? lame tak blogging. pejam celik dah masuk dua minggu dah kite berpuasa kan. so, sempena bulan barakah ni, saya nak mohon ampun dan maaf andai ada salah dan silap yang saya lakukan selama ni.... Ramadhan Kareem...

" Manusia tak pernah lari dari salah dan khilaf

Kerana manusia bukan makhluk yang sempurna

Di bulan yang suci ini mari kita bermaafan

Agar tiada dendam dan hasad dengki "

Marhaban ya Ramadhan 

" Ya Allah, muliakan dan sayangilah pembaca - pembaca blog ini, 

bahagiakan keluarga mereka limpahkan rezeki mereka, kuatkan iman mereka. 

Berikanlah kenikmatan ibadah mereka, jauhkanlah mereka dari segala fitnah. 

Amin. “AHLAN WASAHLAN YA RAMADHAN”

selamat menjalani ibadah puasa kepada semua umat islam seluruh dunia.

thank you for reading.

WW #7 : jadual peperiksaan akhir

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

note: all the best in ur exam !

 

 

because she is Aziey Cloud !

Aziey Nasrudin is Aziey Cloud

heehuu

motip ?

kau hade ??? HAHA~

 

to batch-mates, all the best in final exam.

together we success !